Anxeity Sucks ...

I sometimes get bad anxiety … and I really don't recall as a child having all that much anxiety. Is it possible that when one grows older it becomes more difficult to deal with certain stresses. I believe this to be true. Most of you who know me, already know that my job is pretty stressful. I have blogged a little about the personality types we have at work and some of the crazy stuff people say and do there that lately has gotten under my skin even though I try to to put my best game face on to overcome some of the difficulties I happen to come to. Things have been going pretty smooth at work and then … bang … an other untrue rumor surfaces … and all of sudden without asking the party involved if this is true, it is assumed to be true and then 'wham' implications are made that job losses could be involved. In todays economy it is not a good time to be without a job even though I am really starting to dislike mine! Well no thats not 100% true I love working with the troubled youth and making a difference in their lives but what I can no longer tolerate is folks telling untruths and starting gossip that can cost folks there livelihoods. If I was 15 yeas younger I would approach this person who may have started the rumor and tell them where to go and how to get there. I find myself not liking confrontation these days because it upsets me. Also if you don't know this about diabetics, which I am one emotions are running high all the time if you sugar glucose levels are off the charts. Combine these factors and I just want to plant my head in the ground like an Ostrich and let the world past me by sometimes. Last night and today is one of those days. I have not had a real bad anxiety attack in some times and between last night and today it feels like my heart is going to race out of the rib cage and I am having trouble catching my breath because I know that confrontation will be inevitable. I don't like it but it has to be addressed, this person is messing with my job and further more adding to the already hostile environment that many of us feel we work in. I hate the dread I feel because physically, emotionally I am a wreck. I will have to pull from my spiritual warrior to let this person know that you have to stop this crap now you are hurting people and why do you feel you need to do this? There are some folks that like misery and the person I need to speak to today is one of those who likes to stir the pot because he is so damned miserable. Why do miserable people have to make other folks feel miserable? I can't stand that if everyone tried a little happiness once in awhile what a world this could be? Anyhow the issue is my anxiety right now and I don't know if you folks have ever experienced the kind that makes you feel sick, to your stomach, trouble catching your breath and ache with tension. I do have medicine for these types of anxiety attacks but I do prefer a more holistic and natural approach of working through them. I am sometimes ashamed of the anxiety because it makes me feel like a coward and I am everything but a coward. This is not me when I was younger I could take on the world, or so I felt! How do you work though your anxiety? Some of the things I try to do are:

1.Listen to relaxing music
2.Do some deep breathing exercises
3.Meditation and Visualization
4.Hot bath or shower
5.Drink some herbal calming tea
6.Write about it and keep a journal (in this case I blogged about it)
7.Try to remain calm and avoid irrational thinking
8.Exercise or go for a nature walk
9.Escape by immersing yourself in a good book of movie flick
10.think positive and say some positive affirmations

Any other ideas, suggestions and recommendations from you all are welome!

Bia' Aletheia

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